Hellur..This is Teri

Wow, I freaking can't believe I'm actually blogging. I normally don't feel like I have much to say. But then sometimes I feel like I have plenty.

I guess I wanted to start this blog mainly for myself. I'm not sure if anyone will even read my shit....we'll see. And if you're reading this now and haven't started falling asleep..thank you!

The past couple of years have been the hardest. I've lost a lot of people in my life in those couple of years, my uncle passed away in March of 08 and 15 days later my grandmother passed away. Later that year I had lost my very best friend over some bullshit...but that story will stay in the past. My personal love life was put on hold for over a year and I was forced to find my independence and find my inner me..which in the long run made me stronger knowing I can stand on my own 2 feet. Only to get knocked back to my knees when my dad passed away from Lymphoma cancer in June of 09. He was my rock, my friend and my mentor...It is still very hard without him, especially dealing with my mom. I go on knowing that he will want me to keep moving and help my mom find her way in the process.

Although those past couple of years may have set me back a few..I really feel like this year will offer me something different. I still miss everyone I've lost along the way, but I know that there is something out there waiting for me to grasp, nurture, and love. I feel more, musical, more creative and more in tune than ever...so wish me luck guys. I'm crossing my fingers for 2010!